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"if only i had an enemy bigger than my apathy, i could have won."

unique umbrellas. / Monday, March 31, 2008 @ 9:04 PM

{fly away with me}

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they are such remarkable things.

don't you agree?

they keep you from getting wet from the rain but what i don't understand is why anyone would want to prevent the rain from touching them.

to me, the rain hitting my skin, is a way of my feeling alive and i love it.

the rain hides your tears.
the rain shows our fears.
the rain brings out all our pain.

so why do we need umbrellas?

because we are afraid of getting hit.
(who wouldn't be?)

♥

it's his birthday today [my father].
and i haven't seen him.
but it's killing me deeply inside.

i need to see him.
because seeing him on such a day like this,
will mean that he wants to celebrate it with me.

it will mean so much to me.

but he isn't anywhere to be found.
and that is why i put down my umbrella.
to feel the rain hitting my skin,
because i then feel so alive.

and not alone, anymore.

the rain hides my tears.
the rain hides my fears.

nowhere to be found,
i can't even utter a single sound.
lying alone on the ground.
you are not here. you are nowhere around.
i feel so alone. i feel like the rain has drowned.

<3 atoning for all the loneliness,
averydepressedjazz

delightful drunks. / Saturday, March 8, 2008 @ 4:13 PM

{bottle after bottle. sip after sip.}
|it just gets better and better.|

there are moments when a girl has to have her fun. and i had my moment.

but i had too much fun.

last night, i drank a lot.
i guess it's safe to say that i filled my body with alcohol.
a lot of it.

i feel like a balloon.
like i can just POP at any time.

so delicate.
so fragile.

just like a balloon.

so i was drunk, but i'm lucky i have such thing as "friends" who took care of me all the way.

♥

i needed the alcohol. it felt like it was calling out to me. urging me to touch it. to feel it pouring down my throat and take in the burning sensation.

it called out to me.

it knew my name. knew how i felt. knew what i needed.

knew what i wanted.

and so i took it.
i was weak.

but i'm just glad i survived the night.

oh, so glad.

right there. right down my very throat.
just leave me be. leave me to float.
i'll remember this and i shall take a note.
because i needed it and i quote,
"it felt so good," is what i wrote.

<3 atoning for all the sips,
averydazedjazz

"if only i had an enemy bigger than my apathy, i could have won."
Profile "home is wherever i'm with you." - Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros i have a habit of wandering, therefore i get lost a lot.
unique umbrellas. / Monday, March 31, 2008 @ 9:04 PM {fly away with me} u m b r e l l a s they are such remarkable things. don't you agree? they keep you from getting wet from the rain but what i don't understand is why anyone would want to prevent the rain from touching them. to me, the rain hitting my skin, is a way of my feeling alive and i love it. the rain hides your tears. the rain shows our fears. the rain brings out all our pain. so why do we need umbrellas? because we are afraid of getting hit. (who wouldn't be?) ♥ it's his birthday today [my father]. and i haven't seen him. but it's killing me deeply inside. i need to see him. because seeing him on such a day like this, will mean that he wants to celebrate it with me. it will mean so much to me. but he isn't anywhere to be found. and that is why i put down my umbrella. to feel the rain hitting my skin, because i then feel so alive. and not alone, anymore. the rain hides my tears. the rain hides my fears. nowhere to be found, i can't even utter a single sound. lying alone on the ground. you are not here. you are nowhere around. i feel so alone. i feel like the rain has drowned. <3 atoning for all the loneliness, averydepressedjazz delightful drunks. / Saturday, March 8, 2008 @ 4:13 PM {bottle after bottle. sip after sip.} \|it just gets better and better.\| there are moments when a girl has to have her fun. and i had my moment. but i had too much fun. last night, i drank a lot. i guess it's safe to say that i filled my body with alcohol. a lot of it. i feel like a balloon. like i can just POP at any time. so delicate. so fragile. just like a balloon. so i was drunk, but i'm lucky i have such thing as "friends" who took care of me all the way. ♥ i needed the alcohol. it felt like it was calling out to me. urging me to touch it. to feel it pouring down my throat and take in the burning sensation. it called out to me. it knew my name. knew how i felt. knew what i needed. knew what i wanted. and so i took it. i was weak. but i'm just glad i survived the night. oh, so glad. right there. right down my very throat. just leave me be. leave me to float. i'll remember this and i shall take a note. because i needed it and i quote, "it felt so good," is what i wrote. <3 atoning for all the sips, averydazedjazz
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