let'sescaperealitytogether❤.

and yet...

deep inside i am afraid
of what the future has for me.
afraid of what i will be.
afraid of what will happen.
afraid of the truth.
afraid of what i do not know.

but i know that once i screw up again,
things will go wrong.
and what if he can't forgive me this time?
what if i run out of luck?

what if...

there are so many possible questions
that keep running through my mind.
so many questions that i can ask
but will never expect an answer back.

didn't they say that the truth hurts?

but then i always have to remember
that liars
are worse
than sluts.

and that fucking hurts,
because right now,
i don't know which one i'd rather be.

"if only i had an enemy bigger than my apathy, i could have won."
Profile "home is wherever i'm with you." - Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros i have a habit of wandering, therefore i get lost a lot.
optimistic orange / Thursday, September 4, 2008 @ 5:24 PM things may actually turn out better than i had made them out to be. i'm not one to look at the bright side, always been a pessimist according to my friends. but whatever it is, i actually think everything will turn out okay. i'm happy, i am smiling more and more each day. and yet... deep inside i am afraid of what the future has for me. afraid of what i will be. afraid of what will happen. afraid of the truth. afraid of what i do not know. so basically i am happy but incredibly terrified. and what exactly is the reason? maybe it's because i know that this feeling of bliss will not last. and i'm scared that by the time it actually goes, i will be alone and even more petrified. right now, things are good for me. why? my dad doesn't seem to hate me, and that means a lot to me. a whole lot. but i know that once i screw up again, things will go wrong. and what if he can't forgive me this time? what if i run out of luck? what if... there are so many possible questions that keep running through my mind. so many questions that i can ask but will never expect an answer back. didn't they say that the truth hurts? but then i always have to remember that liars are worse than sluts. and that fucking hurts, because right now, i don't know which one i'd rather be.
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