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"if only i had an enemy bigger than my apathy, i could have won."

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"home is wherever i'm with you." - Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros

i have a habit of wandering,
therefore i get lost a lot.

saying sorry / Friday, September 26, 2008 @ 8:26 PM

i don't know what to write,

i don't know what to type.

all i can say right now is that i am

sorry

all i can say right now is that there is no need to

worry.

i don't know why we fight.

and i still don't know what to type.

i want to say i'm sorry

i want to say so many things.

but what's stopping me...

from telling all of you the truth is the fact that

i was scared.
i felt alone.
i wanted to be alone.

i couldn't think.
i couldn't even breathe.

it's not that i did not trust you or you or even you.

it was because i couldn't trust my judgement.

i couldn't think.

i couldn't even breathe.

i was scared.

if i were to say sorry,

it would be because i was a coward.

it would be because i lost your trust.

it would be because i made you worry.

it would be because i made you guys think there was something big going on.

it would be because i made you guys think that i couldn't trust you.

it would be for so many reasons.

but i would not be because i did not tell you.
i was not ready.
i still am not ready
that there was a possibilty.

a possibility that i could have ended up like my mum.

a possibility that i could have lost my dad.

but then again, right now
it feels like i've lost all of you.
and that is mainly why i am sorry.
i really am.

you guys may think i'm making a big deal out of

nothing.

you guys may think i do not mean what i say.
you guys may think whatever.
you guys may judge me...
i don't know what you guys are thinking of me right now
as you read this
[if you even ever read this]

but all you need to really see is ;

sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry
sorry

i could write that word on a piece of paper

and no matter how much i write

no matther how much my hand starts to ache,

i'll continue writing...

until you guys forgive me.

this is not a lie.
this is the truth.
no twisted stories.
nothing.

just plain truth.
just plain words.

i'm sorry.

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"if only i had an enemy bigger than my apathy, i could have won."
Profile "home is wherever i'm with you." - Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros i have a habit of wandering, therefore i get lost a lot.
saying sorry / Friday, September 26, 2008 @ 8:26 PM *i don't know what to write,* *i don't know what to type.* all i can say right now is that i am sorry all i can say right now is that there is no need to worry. i don't know why we fight. and i still don't know what to type. i want to say i'm sorry i want to say so many things. but what's stopping me... from telling all of you the truth is the fact that i was scared. i felt alone. i wanted to be alone. i couldn't think. i couldn't even breathe. it's not that i did not trust you or you or even you. it was because i couldn't trust my judgement. i couldn't think. i couldn't even breathe. i was scared. if i were to say sorry, it would be because i was a coward. it would be because i lost your trust. it would be because i made you worry. it would be because i made you guys think there was something big going on. it would be because i made you guys think that i couldn't trust you. it would be for so many reasons. but i would not be because i did not tell you. i was not ready. i still am not ready that there was a possibilty. a possibility that i could have ended up like my mum. a possibility that i could have lost my dad. but then again, right now it feels like i've lost all of you. and that is mainly why i am sorry. i really am. you guys may think i'm making a big deal out of nothing. you guys may think i do not mean what i say. you guys may think whatever. you guys may judge me... i don't know what you guys are thinking of me right now as you read this [if you even ever read this] but all you need to really see is ; sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry i could write that word on a piece of paper and no matter how much i write no matther how much my hand starts to ache, i'll continue writing... until you guys forgive me. this is not a lie. this is the truth. no twisted stories. nothing. just plain truth. just plain words. i'm sorry.
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