i've made mistakes just like you have,
and just like anyone else in this world
they say that it is harder to forget
than it is to forgive.

and two months ago,
when we were smiling together
and laughing at each others jokes
i would have agreed
as you had forgiven me for what i had done
and i had also forgiven you for what you had said.
and even though we would never forget the broken
vein in the heart we share,
we were still able to smile
and laugh.

but look at us now,
so far apart from each other
and i'm here all alone without my father to tell me
that he loves me.
without my father
to wish me a merry christmas.
to kiss me on the forehead and tell me that he has
forgiven me.


i, therefore disagree that it is easier to forgive
than it is to forget...


because what is there to forgive,
when you forget that you have left your daughter
all alone
on the eve of christmas
and the day of christmas itself.





it's nice knowing that you have forgotten of my existence,
the past several days of being alone has hit me hard
but i'm done.