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what's wrong / Saturday, February 21, 2009 @ 10:01 PM
i dedicate this post to all those out there; who need to hear it. those who need something;to hang on to. those who need someone;to depend on. those who need these words;to ignite the flame back in their hearts. this is for those out there who are waiting for without a flaw Mr Right, the constantly swooned over Prince Charming, the gallant "knight in shining armour", depiction of male beauty Brad Pitt; and the perfect man of our dreams. it's okay to dream once and again of the certain guy that you want. the yearning for someone to love and care about, -someone to requite those ardent feelings, -someone to touch your helpless heart, -someone to bring you back to life, -someone to simply love you. you want to be with him, he wants to be with either another girl or no one. you either give up and move on, or make a move and be hopeful. the former is the smarter move but the latter is easier. i'm not an expert or even a love guru, but i'm a victim, not of cupids arrow as i have never been in love nor do i believe in love, but i have experienced the yearn for a man to come along and look at me with admiration. as a victim of such, i have been hurt and left broken. i've had friends who have been and still are, in similar situations. some of them are more courageous than i ever was, some are not as flamboyant in displaying their feelings. whoever you are, whichever you are, wherever you are, whatever you may be... don't worry. you may feel alone but just remind yourself that you are not the only one who has been left alone to mend a cracked heart that has stopped beating. i miss waking up in the mornings and thinking "i'll see him today," and it'll get me singing in the shower or daydreaming about the inevitable. who cares if it's admiration from afar? at least i haven't been rejected. but the walks on cloud nine and bounces up the stairs stopped once i told him and the words were not returned. there was no exchange of smiles; only a pathetic exchange of sorrow and pity. a disappointed face walks away as a worried one stares after the slouching figure. and when that happened, when i woke up on my bed i would be thinking of how foolish i was. i would slap myself in the forehead and close my eyes, hoping that i would disappear. first comes the affection, then the rejection, the denial then the hate and if you're lucky the comprehension. so far, i'm still on hate and in my opinion i am no closer in comprehending what had happened or what i've done wrong. those may be the steps but it varies on each person's situation. you may think i'm talking about you; but who knows maybe i actually am. i might not know what i'm writing but do you know what you're reading? the point is:
there is nothing wrong with what you feel [mostly] only in the way the other person does. | ||||
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